hiya all ..first the good news ..after 10 long years me and my other half are getting married in july ..can't bleeding wait . then the bad stuff , i was diagnosed with secondry cancers over xmas in my pelvis and my liver , went to see a new lot of consultants last wednesday and they all say the same that i'm too ill for chemo and they can only try and keep me pain free . finding it very hard to comprehend , i'm 38 years old and have 5 children who need me ..i'm begging for a 2nd opinion at the marsden . at first after my dodgy mri i was told that they would leave chemo until i was symptomatic ..now it seems i am symptomatic and i am too ill for chemo ..i don't understand . trying to see the positives ..i've been given steroids for the enlarged liver and to give me oomph and they will see me again in 3 weeks to discuss again , but not that hopefull .i have lots of hope but they have none ..so i'm finding dresses ..booking flowers and inviting as many as possible to take my mind off things
