Had cytoscopy last week, cancer back again. This is the third time. I know have to see another specialist about surgery as all different treatments have not worked. I am in shock as I knew what way it was heading but now it looks like its here I am petrified. Ive done 18 months of treatments for nothing. I feel so sorry for myself (big baby) I think I need a kick up the backside telling me Im lucky Im still here, but at the moment it doesnt feel like it. I know it means I should be cancer free after but It doesnt stop my feelings of anxiety. I have a lovely nurse who I can call anytime but I still feel alone. Has anyone had surgery and can they tell me something about it please.
