well ive been........

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After my last blog yesturday i was going to the doctours as there was something wrong wth my tests.....well ive been and all is not rosey as i would say.... my Big C has spread but i have been offered a clinical trial to "improve my quality of life" as they put it...has anyone been on a clinical trial?? im alittle bit lost at the min in all honesty and my mummy was very good she promised not to cry.....they have also said that i can carry on with my chemo and see if that helps which i gladly accepted......the only thing that is really bothering me is my little girl shes only two and i think when my time comes to a end i will be ready its just that i dont want to be forgotten about if that makes any sense......with her being so little i dont want her to forgett who her mummy was...

im going to go now will blog again soon...

guess cancer is living with me now.....

Emma

xxx

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I am so sorry to hear your news. Lets hope the trial keeps you around to see your little girl grow up!

    There is always hope.

    Love Julie XX

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Emma, sorry to hear your news and like Julie I hope that the clinical trial keeps you  around long enough to see Autumn grow up.

    Keep hope in your heart ( I know its sometimes its easier said than done) but lots of people on here as well as those close to you at home will be thnking of you.

    Lots of love, hugs and my very best wishes

    Love

    Val

    xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Emma i am so sorry, Autumn is so dinky she won't have the words yet but i have found this and it is from Autumn to you:

    With all the hardships she's been through,

    She should be looking sad and blue.

    Yet she smiles on and holds her head high,

    With fiery ambition flickering in her eyes.

    Warrior woman, with mysterious ways,

    Her magic and strength help us get through hard days.

    And in times when I have my own tears,

    A touch from her hand makes it all disappear.

    My mother is a fighter, who never gives in,

    Both for me and herself she's determined to win.

    She's my hero, my shelter, my best friend forever.

    There's no mountain too high as long as we're together.

    Keep fighting Emma, Cancer may be with you now but it is still possible you can kick it into touch.

    We will all be here for you.

    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Emma.

    As long as you have your little girl,and you are feeling up to it get as many photo,s taken, so if thinks do get bad she will have something to remember her Mummy by, also if you get a chance

    Keep a wee diary of all the things you have done together and would like to do. All the Best and Good

    Luck.

    Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Emma

    I'm so sorry about you news. Believe me hun you will not be forgotten no matter when the time comes. Write Diaries, take lots of photo's and put together a memory box if you feel up to it.

    Just take it easy for now. Will be thinking of you and your little girl. You sound as brave as your mummy.

    Tiggs x