well ive been........

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After my last blog yesturday i was going to the doctours as there was something wrong wth my tests.....well ive been and all is not rosey as i would say.... my Big C has spread but i have been offered a clinical trial to "improve my quality of life" as they put it...has anyone been on a clinical trial?? im alittle bit lost at the min in all honesty and my mummy was very good she promised not to cry.....they have also said that i can carry on with my chemo and see if that helps which i gladly accepted......the only thing that is really bothering me is my little girl shes only two and i think when my time comes to a end i will be ready its just that i dont want to be forgotten about if that makes any sense......with her being so little i dont want her to forgett who her mummy was...

im going to go now will blog again soon...

guess cancer is living with me now.....

Emma

xxx

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    thank you all for your kind words....and vicki thank you for your post it made me cry but in a good way.....xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Emma,

    I am so sorry to hear your news. I wish I could give you a big hug. You are such a lovely girl and your daughter is beautiful. I will echo what Tiggs said. Make a memory box with letters, photos, audio messages or video messages. Make special birthday cards for her until she is eighteen and then cards and letters for the day she gets married, or has her first child, etc. I know it is heart wrenching to think about these things but they will be priceless to her in the future and will keep your memory with her forever. I have asked my husband, who is terminal, do this for our grandchildren and for his adult daughters. You may not be ready to do something like that. But, it is something you could do when you are ready.

    Don't give up it ain't over yet! I don't know much about the trials. But, they may help.

    The most valuable thing in life is who you love and who loves you back.

    Love and hugs,

    Becky

    x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    dear emma

    what can i say, when words dont seem enough?  i'm so sorry to hear your news. i hope the trial and the chemo do work for you - where there is a chance, there is hope.

    i do think the ideas people have posted on here are lovely, and i hope you will be emotionally able to do the ones that you feel are right for you.

    thinking of you, and your daughter and family.

    love, claire x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Emma, I don't think any words can begin to  express how you must be feeling.  You must have had a very hard day, take some time out just  for you to absorb everything. Please accept these(((hugs))) from me instead. You seem like a very brave young woman, and when she is older Autumn will be so proud of her mummy!!

    I am sure that your family will ensure that you are not forgotten, and the fight isnt over yet!! Everyone is always here when you need usxx

    Love Sharon