Well its been a while since I logged on. Time just seems to be taken over with hospital appointments and four days of sickness after each treatment. For a little while it had started to get us down but you have to kick yourself before depression takes over, so a good kick came our way, again. You would think that after all these years you would get used to it all but you never fully get used to it, sometimes you even think things will one day be normal again but then reality hits home and you realise that this is it now. Hubby will never get the five year all clear from his docs and we will always have to keep going to the hospital for how ever long so we have to just learn to get on with life as it is now.
So depression kicked backed into its box for a while and take each week at a time. The good news is that hubbys blood count is staying in the normal range with this regime of chemo, the bad news is that he is on this until November and then the weaning off this new drug will begin and so will the nervous breakdown - you know it will be a good thing to stop chemo, and maybe this time it will work but you also know that as in the past it might not work but only time will tell come November and that is so hard to cope with. That is the really scary part, the waiting to see what will happen. So between now and November we will just have to make the most of life, hoping that this drug keeps doing what it is doing and praying that it will work once and for all and we must not complain really because the regime has been changed as of yesterday from two weekly to three weekly treatments instead and boy oh boy are we going to make the most of that extra week in between.
It is amazing what little things can make your day and when the doc said we get an extra week that really did make our day.
Still dealing with all the other rubbish, hubby still having issues with his employer - joke really cos he hasn't been in work since 2000 - but hopefully that will all sort itself out 'in the wash' very soon and that will be one less stress in our life.
Still backing the Fuel Poverty Campaign and we even got a slot in the Big Issue a couple of weeks ago, maybe Mac will suceed in this and that would help many on this site, so good luck to them.
I will update soon.
Love Ray xxx
