Wouldn't it be nice if it was so easy to actually turn time back, just like we do every year. I would only go back though if I knew what I know now. I would like to go back to Christmas 1994, with a two yr old and a seven week old baby, all seemed perfect then. Married, lucky enough to have had two healthy children and looking for ward to a wonderful Xmas. All the extended family coming to us for Xmas dinner and an evening bufffet, lots to do but lots of fun and laughter and totally unaware that the following Xmas would be a world of difference. That year was a good one, and the New Year also seemed to be a good, hubby had moved jobs to a really good position with prospects, he was happy and I was enjoying being a mum. In the June of 1995 we could actually afford our first decent car, nope it was brand new but to us it was. Six weeks later I was sat at home worrying why hubby was late, he usually called me if he was going to be late on his monster of a mobile phone - it was a brick. Our friends were round for tea and one of them was a local policeman, he could see that I was getting really aggitated and he called our local station, after several minutes he came to me and said hubby was involved in a car accident early that morning and we had to rush to a hospital in Merseyside where hubby worked. All the way there I did not understand why no one had tried to contact me, the car was in both names and hubby would have had his brief case and wallet with his personal detail in it. Well after what seemed like an age, we were taken in to see hubby - the doc came to me and explained that hubby was stopped at a set of traffic lights when an older guy just ran into the back of him at about 35 miles an hour - the guy did not see the lights nor our car - hubby had bruised his spine but because of the way he wa hit he had submarined in his seat which in turn allowed the seatbelt to cut into his groin which had caused a blood lesion. He was allowed home but for two weeks he was in agony and off to A and E he went - definetely a blood lesion caused by the crash and it would disperse with time, two weeks later he was back again, this time they did biopsies amongst other tests but again the answer was just a blood clot which would take time to disperse so go home have more babies and come for a checkup in four months time. 8th Dec 95 arrived for hubbys follow up so as the doc had said there was no worried he went on his own.
Then all the brown stuff hit the fan, home he came with the new news that it had actually been cancer and the wrong blood test was taken back in August, hubby needed to go in hospital straigh away for surgery. That was the start of our nightmare and I do wish we could go back in time. When we asked the hospital how this had happened the only answer we got is that we should be grateful as they got it right in the end.
We should have known better then but you put all your trust in these people, you surrender yourself to them. This is the first place I WOULD GO TO TURN BACK THE CLOCK there are many more after this but it would be nice wouldn't it.
Ray xxx
