A Lifetime of Cancer - back to the chemo

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Well hubby starts another regime tomorrow and boy am I not looking forward to it. We thought it would be over again by now, the doc said four months back in June and now it has turned into next February. The journey to the hospital is one that we hate with a passion, you wake up and feel so lost, like a child that does not want to go back to school after the holidays, but no matter how much you try and stall time you know that you will have to go. You know that the journey on the motorways will be horrendous, you drive with your heart in your mouth hoping you actually get there in one piece. When you do get there, you have to drive around looking for somewhere to park, eventually you go in and then the waiting starts, first you have to wait to see the doc, then your bloods have to be done, then you have to wait on their results, then they order the chemo which can take three hours during which time you wander around the hospital like a lost sheep - there is only so much coffee you can drink, then there is the messing around on the ward and then, yipee, you get the chemo.

The one he starts tomorrow only takes five minutes to administer but we know that we will be out of the house from morning til night, what joy. Then you sit at home, waiting for the side effects to start, then the waiting on going back in two weeks time with the fear that this one is not working either. The sleepless nights full of worry and no matter how hard you try, sleep only comes when your mind and soul is exhausted by it all. You wake with the same worries on your mind but then you have to try and function for another day, which is so hard, when all you want to do is hide away and hope that some magic fairy will wave a wand to make it disappear.

Well, what choice do we have? None because no matter how many times we have to do this we will because somewhere deep inside you have to believe that you will one day be free of this illness and all it brings with it.

So another Christmas looming with cancer in its midst.

Ray xxx

  • Hi Ray

    What a pain to have to do all that travelling and then waiting for the blood test results before the chemo can be prepared.

    I had my blood taken at the doctors surgery on the Friday before chemo on the Monday.

    The cancer ward rang on the Monday morning to say if the blood test was ok and to come in. Still had to see the doc before treatment but the drugs were ready and waiting.

    Perhaps they could arrange something like that for you.

    Good Luck

    Sue x x x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Tried that one hun, but the daft doc at the hospital wants his hospital to do the bloods as each one has different scales for the bloods for teratoma and he wants to go off his hospital scale. Our local hospital did do that once a few years ago but it did not suit the chemo hospital. Thanks anyway for the kind thoughts, xxx

    Ray

  • Hi Ray

    The nurse took my blood at the surgery and then it was taken by courier to the hospital where I was having chemo.

    Am so sorry you have all these delays for a 5 min treatment.

    These doctors need to undrstand the stress we go through. Sure they could help out if they wanted to.Love Sue x x x