And they say that Lightening Doesnt Srike Twice.

Oh Polly you poor love. No wonder you are pannicking and feeling negative. The good thing is there is a treatment plan in place. You will cope although you are quite naturaly scared you will come through so strong my love.

You have been proving how strong you are all ready when you had your mastectomies try and take one day at a time like you did then, and however crap the day is find anything in that day that will make you feel happy even for a moment ,try to fnd joy  where you can, it is hard, but can be done ,it will give you some balance and help you cope.

What is your support network   ,do you live alone? have you a supportive family and friends? Chat to me anytime about anything it is easy to feel so alone when you are swallowed up with feelings of dread . You are not alone pet, come on here and find someone to share with. Its big stuff to deal with. Tell me what are your questions ,get them out of your head and into your blog space thats a start towards some relief.

Pamper yourself big style you deserve it.

I understand how you want to cry but can't . It will happen when you are ready and when it  happens just cry all you want.You won't die from crying love and it will release all that pent up anxiety.

Let me know how you get on on Friday  love and hugs Anne

Hi Polly,

Good luck on Friday. Sorry to hear the Cancers back after all this time, but if you can do it once you can do it again. I will send you all my support and strength and caring. All the best and good luck.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx

Hi  Anne. thankyou so much for your sound advice. I felt better as soon as I had read your reply. It made me smile because you gave me the exact advice that I would have given another person if they had come to me. I couldn`t see the wood for the trees at the time, however the sun was shining the following morning and all seemed much better with me, Once again thankyou so much. I will keep you updated on Fridays events.

Take care, Love and Hugs, Polly. xx

Hi Sarsfield,

Thanks for your kind words of encouragement, they were much appreciated. Hope all is well with you.

Take care, Love and Hugs, Polly, xx

I have been out to lunch with my son and his girlfriend today. Had a lovely time, it was good to get  out and forget about things for a while. Going to do some Christmas shopping tomorrow, can`t wait. I love Christmas.