I was diagnosed with BC late October, thirty years to the month after having my first mastectomy aged 23. I had second mastectomy on 2.11.10. and have just been told that it was grade 3 with 16 out of 20 lymph nodes also infected . I am seeing Onchologist on Friday 19.11.10 and have been told to expect 6 months chemo and 2 months radiotherapy. I am usually such a positive person but right now positivity is in short supply. I am afraid. Afraid of the thoughts of treatment, afraid of result of CT scan if I am asked to have one, and afraid of what the future will hold. I want to cry but I don`t seem to have any tears. My head is hurting with the continuous stream of questions that are whirling around in it. I hate feeling so negative but I feel so alone right now. Any suggestions on how to lift my spirits?
