Hi Guys,
Last night i had to go and help out my best friend with some paper work, when i came back the kids were still up and my hubby said the Cerys my youngest who is 4 wanted to talk to me, so we went and had a sit down and she said "mommy i miss Grandad, i have dreams and i am playing with him and then i wake up and know he isn't here, i will never ever see him again and that makes me sad." Bless her heart, i told her i have dreams like that too and i wake up hoping it was real but that grandad has gone to the angels where he can watch cerys playing and he can hear her if ever she wants to talk to him, he will always be around her to keep her safe and that he wants her to be happy. She is so grown up for her age and she loved my dad so much, i feel things are affecting her more than the eldest even. Cerys is always asking questions i just don't know if i said the right things or if i even believe them myself.
This morning my sisters best friend got married and my sister was the most beautiful matron of honour i have ever seen. I went along to the church with my mom and my eldest daughter Jenna, it was a lovely service but i couldn't help but think about when my sister gets married my dad won't be around to walk her down the aisle, something which i will treasure in my heart forever, he was so proud on my wedding dad he was ready to burst into song at every minute.
While the bride and groom were signing the registers the played 'songbirds' and that was it mom and myself were both in tears. It must have been so hard for mom in there, the church where they got married, where we were all christened.
When we came out of the church Jenna said "mommy why was nanny crying?"
I said that i think she wished grandad was there to see Holly looking so beautiful and she said "he was, he was there in my heart"
Kids huh.......when i can't find the words they always do!
