Hi, I don't know where i am going with this but i guess i just need to 'type it out'
I have had a really tough day today.
Mum and I met with the lady from the fund-raising fund for the leukaemia ward that dad was treated on throughout his cancer journey. We raised £1095 for them from donations at dads funeral. It was a fantastic amount and the woman (pauline) was delighted, the money goes straight back into the ward not into the hospital funds.
They also have a charity shop for the ward too so mum and dad ad agreed that all of his clothes etc would go there so that the ward still benefits.
This morning mum and i put dads things into bags ready to take to them, i was instantly upset just by moving his stuff i could smell him. Mum was crying too as we were folding things and i begged her not to do it, it hasn't even been 3 months and i felt that it was too soon for her to make such a huge step. She said if she didn't do it now she never would......i had to put the bags in the car and also had to take them from the car to the shop.
Mum and i got back in the car and just cried.
I feel like i want to go and buy them all back, i know she didn't give them everything she has kept lots but it hurts so much.
I feel so sick now this hurts so so much.
