So have just noticed how long it has been since i last blogged, and in that space of time quite a lot seems to have happened!!
i think i have moved in to the realm of acceptance, i am strangely happier in my self and with others than i have been for a good 6 months, what is even stranger is that i am happier now than before i was told the cancer had returned, all i can put this down to is that there is no longer any waiting, the inevitable has happened now i have something concrete to deal with.
saw the oncologist on monday to discuss my other scans i had and the start of treatment. it was all rather open ended.
when i asked the question - when do we start? the answer i got was 'when do you want to start?'.
when i asked 'how long may treatment be?' the answer i got was 'how ever long you can stand it for'.
now these aren't really the answers that i was looking for from the professionals, surely they should be their calls. well finally my chemo nurse mandi managed to pin the answers down a little, they want to get started but they have said if i want to take a break away first thats ok, so we have decided on w/c 16 may. that gives me a month to get myself more prepared and get stuff organised. (i like to organise!).
