Hi everyone i am back at last!! My daughter has loaned me her laptop until mine is repaired, i did'nt realise how much i depended on it. I must admit i've not been having too good a time recently, although i have'nt been really poorly, i have had little niggles of stuff such as, muzzy headache, nasty taste in my mouth and niggly pain here and there and above all else, the feeling that the cancer is taking me over and i'm going to die!!!!!. It's not something i feel able to talk to my family about either, you know what i mean? i am just feeling so scared, it's not like me at all, usually i can keep myself feeling positive, but not at the moment. My 3rd chemo is due on wednesday this week so will try and have a chat to someone at clinic on tuesday and am definately going to a support group soon as i can. Sorry this has been a whingy blog, just needed to get it off my chest. :) dee
