Two more days at work to go. I'm all out of steam because my head's done in and I'm exhausted but I'm hanging on. I'm on annual leave all next week anyway so aside from Peak District-ing, seeing a couple of friends and a whole heap of hospital appointments/radiotherapy, I'll be doing some serious hardcore sleeping! Still can't get over how tired I am ALLLLLL the time. I'm 26 years old and I'm in my jarmies and having a nap straight after work just to keep me up long enough to smile at Hairy, call him a badger and eat something. When Hairy's home there's some fairly sensible eating and when he's not, like this week I've had the dinner of an ill informed student most evenings. FYI toffee popcorn for dinner might not be good for you, but it's still satisfying all the same!
The other managers on my floor at work now know I've got cancer. I wasn't going to tell them but after a couple of bizarre incidents where I'd clearly not been on the same planet as the rest of the world, I kinda felt like I owed them an explanation for my even more ditsy behaviour than normal. I kept it low key, after all there's nothing really big to tell and continued on with the meeting I was in as if I'd just told them I had taken the last Mars bar - definitely the way to go!
I've had another pretty good day though. I'm not sure what happened because I've got 0 retention but I wasn't crying by the end of it so I call that a success. Hairy has gone out to watch the football with a friend and I have been reunited with my hair dryer so we're both happy bunnies!
I can't believe radiotherapy starts next Thursday. I know in the scheme of treatment it's not really a big deal but it still doesn't seem real either. I know I talk about it a lot here and I think about it all the time else I wouldn't be functioning like an ostrich with only half a brain but it still feels like it's someone else's life and I'm just observing the fact. Very odd indeed. I am in a very shiny mood though. There have been lots of laughs today and that's what we like.
I'm even doing my best to read a whole book. Granted, it's taking a while because every time I go back to it and start reading I get myself in a muddle and have to go back a bit to read it again and remind myself but it's good for the mind mee thinks. Anyway, I have high heels to pick out for a very important man so off I go to complete my mission! :)
