so I had my results fro my second lot of Sirtex treatment, but it ended up being more about what else had happened since then.
Turns out that whilst the radiation seems to have worked very well on at least some of the tumours in my liver, the chemo (irinotecan specifically) has stopped working entirely between the 2 lots of scans which were only really 8 or 9 weeks apart. I now have over 10 tumours in each lung, where I had none before. To say I was shocked to hear that is an understatement. That wasn't part of the equation.
So I had no chemo this week as my Oncologist s away and we need to talk about what they are gonna try with me next to deal with this.
I just can't believe that my Liver is finally heading in the right direction only for this to happen. my mum was already convinced it must have spread as I have been so unwell over the last couple of months now. The 2 aren't actually connected as the doc said I wouldn't have felt much of a difference if at all, the fluid and nausea etc are more of a coincidence, but that's how she worked it out in her head and who can blame her.
I just want to get better and that light at the end of the tunnel just seems to keep going out on me.
Am hopefully going away this weekend with a friend to the coast to get away from it, hoping it will be nice an sunny, but as long as i can chill and not think about it for a bit that will be enough for me.
