I'm due to start SIRT at the end of Feb. 3 weeks later than it should have been which means I'm without any chemo for longer than I needed to be which is a bit scary in itself. I've had over 6 months of chemo and as much as you wish you didn't have to keep taking the drugs it still scares the hell out of you when you don't have it.
I have the 'dummy run' to check the radiation will go in all the right places on the 16th and pray to god all being well with that, the treatment kicks in the following week. pretty much my last hope. probably gonna feel awful for days if not weeks but I just hope it works. I can put up with sickness if they can tell me it's working.
I'm chemo resistant which does not go in my favour, so the idea of waiting for yet more results fills me with dread. but it's a necessary evil.
the success rate at stage 4 cancer isn't great, but they've only had 100 patients so far and everyone is different, I'm using that as my twinkle of hope that it might just work.
I move to a cool new flat in 2 weeks so hopefully that's the start of good things for this year. I had the best trip ever a couple of weeks back when out of the blue I was able to go on my company ski trip. Bearing in mind they had already flown out (I was gutted as I had missed out by a hair) to get a text saying 'book a flight we've got a space for you' made me the happiest I've been in months. I literally smiled all the way from london to saalbach. I was a very happy bunny. allbeit a bunny with a sore bum by the end of it thanks to having to learn to snowboard very quickly!
let's hope I having something else to celebrate soon
