They let me come home today. I'm so happy to be here. They told me yesterday morning that they weren't sure about the toxoplasmosis. They don't think its cancer but they still don't know. My neurological symptoms are back. I have to get a blood test to see if it is the toxoplasmosis or cat scratch fever. If not we're back to clueless... Back to testing. I can handle that. Its ok really. It sucked at first to have the symptoms back because I didn't think I'd have them. Now I'm ok with it. The clinic is on holiday vacation so I can't get any answers until january.
They prepare your wound for the outside invironment. They prepare you for all the procedures and pain. They don't tell you about the fear though. I'm 22. I almost died from a simple surgery. I almost died because of a bacteria that shouldn't have been where it was. There is no good answer for why. I am so grateful to be alive and I'm not angry. They did the best they could with what they had and accidents happen. I understand. I'm happy and ready to live my life. I'm terrified though. I'm 22 and I could end up in a body bag tomorrow. Its that way for everyone. I know that I'm no more/less likely to bite it than anyone else. Most people just don't have to face it already. I'll be over it before long. Its just temporarily suffocating. Everything is fine, better... Everything is perfect. Well, except that I'm still sick and I have a hole in my chest with a medical vacuum attached to it. Even that's not so bad. I have chocolate and I'll be back on the human hamster wheel tomorrow... Starting at a walk.
FormerMember
Hi Ya Doin,
Well young lady you have had experiences beyond your years. If you dont mind me saying so you have a fantastic outlook on life, one that will see you go a long way in this lifetime. You will do just fine. You have got the spirit!!!!!!!!!!. Look after yourself.
