Well the Week as gone

Hi James

You and my dad have so much in common.  He has throat/trachea cancer ( he has a trachea tube in ) and he's fed by PEG too.  He beat cancer last year but we were told that it was back in Feb this year, but this time it is terminal.  We're devastated.

Dad is usually such an upbeat man but recently he's been so depressed and distant and withdrawn.  We're trying to cope with it and realise that he feels so ill but its difficult for us to watch him in such a dark place. His recent chest infection has taken him into an even darker place and we are at a loss on how to help him.

Rest assured James that your family and wife don't take your black days personally - they hurt for you too and I'm sure would do anything to make things easier for you.

Hang in there.

Paula

Thank You Paula

          You have taken the time to read my depressing posts and reply to them whil you and your family are coping with a very similar situation, I hate to feel that I am loading others with my problems,your Dad sounds such a strong character I seem to be able to feel with him as you say it sounds very much like our stories are very much the same. At the moment i am going through a vicious chest infection which is causing me so much pain and pain is a very personal thing that no matter how you try to explain it you cant and no one can help you to cope with it, and now i am fed through my PEG for 12 Hours a day what makes things worse is that now they have decided that the PEG is Asperation into my Lung and making my infections worse, My dark days are getting worse and this morning i awoke at half past four and had to struggle down the stairs to give my self pain relief, once down i cannot go up stairs until tonight I do so hate my life and hate what it is doing to my family. I am sure this is how your Dad feels and in the deep dark places we go it is hard to see a way out.

                Virtual Huggs  James XX