Well here i am again a new post to add too all the others, that i have written this is the only way that i find a release from all my dark moods and thoughts , which i must say i never thought that it was possible for me too drop so low and it is like looking out of a deep dark pit when i am there my mind does not know what to do, all i think that i really need is for my better half to believe in the way that i am feeling so that she can understand how i feel it is like being alone whilst in a room full of people that you know you cannot seem to make a contact to anyone of them, I still have had no more information as to how my Cancer is going to be dealt with the first group of specialists said that they have a plan involving an Operation and radiotherapy but due too the fact that they have asked for another specialist to have a look then this has been put on hold untill the 6th of January, I think that that isan awful waste of time till anything can be done.
All For Now James
