Hi all
Mum had good night, slept for 4 hours then after 2 hrs awake slept for another 4 which was fab!! Think she had missed her own bed.Stent still quite painful but her consultant is quite happy for her to only have fortisips.(she tried mash but was sick). We didnt make it out to the garden today although the sun was shining.
She is too weak to manage stairs on her own now, and my stepdad has taken over showering her with the help of a shower chair. However she is managing to sit up for an hour or two at a time, so she is happy about that. (its amazing how things we take for granted suddenly become so much more meaningful!!)
Anyway, my sister and I were visiting her today and she said that she needed us to visit at 7pm on Thurday. No problem, we said, why? And here's the surprise/shock...."Ive got the minister coming to arrange my funeral and I want you to be a part of it." Now, mum has talked about the funeral, I helped her chose songs a few weeks ago, but I never saw this coming!! I understand why she wants to do it, she wants to ensure that it is a celebration and that she doesnt leave it for us to do.But Im really not sure of how we are all going to cope with this! We are not churchgoers, mum doesnt want a religious ceremony (or anyone to be sad!) and the minister is a friend of my stepdads family who is fabulous at making everything very personal. I have actually written mum a poem as a tribute(thats what I do) and she asked to read it. which was very emotional for us both. She has expressed a wish for one of us to read it on the occassion, but I dont think I will be strong enough on the day. My thirteen year old daughter is quite adamant that she will read the poem, becuase she says she will not be sad because gran will be watching! We will have to wait and see.
At the moment we are very much taking one day at a time, with the goal of our birthdays set firmly in mums sight. One day closer.
Hope everyone is having a good weekend,
Love Sharonxx
