Finally got round to doing a job that we had been putting off and off. Before mum died she asked my sister and I to help clear out her wardrobes(with her) and bag everything for the Macmillan shop. The day before we were going to do this she deteriorated rapidly and we didnt get them cleared.
In a mad moment, my stepdad wanted to bag everything the day afer Mum died, but I expressed my feelings that it was too soon, and a week later he said he was really glad that we hadnt gone ahead and rushed it. So...here we were, almost 5 months on, and we hadnt yet summonsed up the courage to empty out mums (vast) wardrobes and go through her drawers.
We decided today was the day, and headed through this morning. It was very emotional, many of the outfits brought special memories to mind, and I could still smell mums scent on her jackets which was comforting and upsetting at the same time. Found a half smoked ciggie in a handbag, I don't smoke but almost wanted to light it up and put it to my lips just to feel close to her!! So now its done, 2 suitcases and 10 big bags full of lovely clothes for the Mac shop, a few treasured pieces kept by us just in comfort. It wasnt easy, I feel very emotional tonight, but I am glad that it is now done and know Mum was around us as we did it. Still miss you more than words can say Mum, but trying to pick up the pieces like I know you would want us to. xx
Sharonxx
