I am bloody scared & dark clouds

Kaz what your feeling is natural sweety.. I went through it all last time and I am doing the same this time as well.

As for the your partner's son not understanding I think you'll find he does but is trying to be a hard man and not show how scared he is right now by reacting as if he does not understand.

There are several books around on how to help kids deal with a parent having cancer. I know I found them helpful when explaining to my daughter (who was just comming upto her 4th birthday at the time of my first cancer fight).

Also try talking with your cancer nurse about explaining whats going on with your 3 teenagers.

You partner is right your health is more important than the family holiday right now. You can take that holiday later on in the year when you are feeling well enough. Use the holiday as a distraction when your in this dark place by planning where you are going to go and what you are going to be doing with the kids. You can also think about planning days out with the kids while your recovering from treatments as well so keep that in mind.

I hope this helps you Kaz

Hi Kaz,

Dont worry I would say most of us on this site have made preperations for the end . In sorting out our wills,and doing the things that are needed to give us peace of mind.

when the time comes everythings in place. So you are

not under a dark cloud. Your doing things that are necessary for your peace of mind.  Look after yourself.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx

Hi Kaz

Im a carer for my Dave, havent done a will but have given my two sons and Dave my funeral wishes, to be carried out to the letter. That includes the tunes with actions to "Im a little teapot, short and stout" and "Polly put the kettle on", soooooooooo loooooooove my tea x

Sorry added before I signed off :(

We all have those sort of days, brighter days will come,

Love to you all

Shaz (((((XXX)))))