My life changed on 10th July after a few mamograms and biopsys to be diagnosed with Ductal Carcinoma in Situ (DCIS) and to be told the only way I could move on from this was to have a right breast mastectomy. I thought my world had ended, I know it could have been a lot worse, if I have a mastectomy I should not need any further treatment unless there is anything found during my operation that they are not expecting. Since then I have had an MRI, a CT, a Bone Scan and apart from further lumps in my already infected breast everything came back ok. My breast nurses and consultants could not be any nicer, making me feel that I can phone them anytime, which of course I dont as I dont want to bother them. My emotions are all over the place, I burst into tears at a drop of a hat, a song on the radio a tv programme. My poor family are so worried, my dad had a heart scare due to the stress of his wee girl going through this. I hate what it is doing to them all especially my husband and boys. I worry about them the most, I worry I am going to leave them without a wife and mum. I cant tell anyone how scared I am that I may not come through my operation, silly I know. I have written out funeral arrangements, hymns, instructions for paying bills, insurances etc for my hubby as I deal with it all. My Mastectomy and reconstruction are scheduled for 8th October, they are using my tummy tissue to do my reconstruction so I can be in theatre up to 8 hours, having never had an operation of any kind before I am scared stiff.
