Wow, was trying to catch up with all my mac family and posted as many responses as i could and realised there was no excuse, i needed to pass time as i am getting a bit jittery now....so here i am updating my blog haha and still within the usual 2 /3 weeks .Sorted !
Well i had my lunch with the girls last week and we had a great time i think we wished we could do it more often, they called me inspirational. No what i did was cook lunch, made a fuss of them and acted normal lol. they dont let me get away with anything and didnt even offer to wash up , whats all that about, waitress service am i ? do you know what i love them so much for it they are the most supportive and loving friends. I also had a day out with my oldest (not in age) friend last week . we have known each other for 26 years and met when we were nannies in Oslo and been friends ever since. She has seen me through so much over the years and sends me texts every couple of days to give me support. Love you gwennie.
So pre op was on Friday, so very hot and had to drive to London to st georges and it was 30c what was that all about ? one houir later and talking to some really nice nurses we hit the traffic home and just as rush hour started, nearly 2 hours later i got home and hubbie had a nice large glass of wine waiting for me and my mum. Bless her she has come up nearly every week to help and support me and it takes her hours to get here. She is coming back when i get out so that Andrew can still go to work and take the pressure off him a little, poor hubbie is beside himself but deserves a gold star.....talking of which...
before the hospital appointment i got a call from our local catalogue company to say a ring id admired had come in, its a real sparkler 5 cubic circonias about 3/4 carat each and a bit of metal to hold it together but it looks so pretty and was next to nothing so told hubbie he bought it for me to wish me good luck and add a bit of sparkle to my days....... still doesnt managed how he did it and now he's worried he is forgetting things.....now post operative earrings lol.
Been to gp today to stock up on the good old tramadol as the hospital said i wont want to go out for a couple of weeks as i will look awful (great!) actually i already knew that as ive done my research as you do.... Anyway showed her my lump and she wanted someone at the hospital to check it out but as im seeing consultant on wednesday agreed that he could deal with organising more biopsies and scans etc More to worry about but hey at this rate i might as well ask for a new face, have to admit after 44 years i have grown accept the one i have , a new one scares me and thats half my problem i think. Anyway back to tramadol....god how it ruins your insides so she has given me long term laxatives, nothing sems to be working at the moment i just hope i dont have any embarressing moments in theatre, oh well at kleast ill be asleep lol.
Have had lots of fun this afternoon uploading photos, just a few one of my handsome hubbie and i on our wedding day last year and two , one each of my daughters. I will add more as time goes by of all my 'rea'l family and hope to see more pictures of my mac family too.
So last day tomorrow think i will spend it on here and looking in the mirror saying goodbye to my nose, doing a litle housework and trying to remain sane .
No one ever asks me 'what am i scared of' if the did i would answer them truthfully, like my big sis its not of dying but leaving people especially my hubbie to deal with things and having to care for me. Even at my pre op last week i was asking more questions hubbie related, like who will keep an eye on him, who will tell him where he can find me, who will show him where to get a drink etc. dont get me wrong he is a more than capable person a fully grown man with a mouth and more than enough comman sense but i suppose worrying about him helps me not to focus on me and i do love him so much, my heart breaks when i see him worying so much, he calls me his Angel and one thing is for sure if anything happens to me i will always love and look over hima nd protect as best i can as i would for all those i love ..............
