Well, havent posted a blog for a few days, been umpteen busy, with this that and the other, after the little fracas with step-dad, things have settled down, I know he's worried bout mum, and having his own health problems too, mum said the other day that he is coming to terms with the fact that she cant take care of him, hes been doing his best for mum, I have taken over mums roll, step-dad went back to work on monday, against docs advice, but hes worried bout money, hes been on sick for 2 months due to angina attacks, hes had 3 stents and has to go in for another, he is facing a by-pass.........why did this all have to happen at the same time....so Im spending the whole day with mum, I darent leave her, and makink step dads tea when he gets in from work.......mum is waiting for a shower seat, I had to get a plastic chair from garden and bath her yesterday, it upset me as its the first time ive seen her and the total effect of her weight loss, 3 and half stone since xmas.....
Monday, I was in rememberance for my dear dad and aunt, it would have been their birthday........
Tuesday I was at mums till evening then had to go to Leeds to help my eldest son move his gear, hes at uni and moving into a new place, but not till tomorrow, so i have to go back to leeds cos the car is fulll........
I got home at 1.45am, called at 24 asda on the way home lol, was wide awake and couldnt sleep, even when I got home, got to sleep bout 3am, before the birdies woke me, lol, was out for the count but had to get up at 6.30am, to go to mums, take step dad to work for 8am, then mum to hospital at 10.30 for a scan, results on the 15th July, in my mums words "I hope radiotherapy has shrunk the b*****d............
So since I have been thinking about my dad, and missing him so much I would like to post a poem by Christina Rosetti, and for my aunt (as Im typing now, am listening to radio, how strange, her song has just come on, that was played at her funeral, somewhere over the rainbow.........
I have a couple of pics from good times when me and mum walked the dogs, and a spectacular rainbow that we saw that evening, so for you Aunty Taffy (mums sis) RIP xxxx
Remember
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
Much much love and hugs to all that need emxxxxxx
