after a bit of a blow yesterday
have to face the consultant for cancer tomorrow, hope this is better nes than what I had on Wednesday for the liver.
right now am feeling empty and and numb, antibiotics are not helping but thought would get over that numbness, empty feeling, but I need to get back to my old chirpy self no cares in the world take life as it comes but now feeling of sinkingness (spelling crap) am sinkin so low am not sure how I can come back up to the top again, always have done before, but seems as if no body cares and when people find out they just want to avoid you, have told mates and colleagues when i found out not to do this but they have, when i said dont I can still talk about it if they want to....
never mind such as life I think,....update this later
