I am having a really awful evening. I cant get it out of my head that we are going to lose my lovely Dad. I know we could have a while with him yet, but the thought of not having him around is tearing me apart. Dad has been my confidante all of my life. We are so alike and have fought like cats over the years, in fact, I couldn't live under the same roof as him as a teenager and his 'over protectiveness' of me seemed to stifle me.
I would do anything to have that again right now. To have my Dad's strong arms to protect me. I know he is still around, still able to hug me and chat to me, but for the first time tonight it has hit me like a tonne of bricks that he is not going to be around for a great deal of time longer.
I can't stop crying. I know it is pathetic and I should be strong, but at times like tonight, I just need to be wrapped up in self pity and get this little blip out of my system.
I know there are people on here who are in a more tragic position than I at the moment, but I can't see anything but my own misery.
Sorry folks...please bear with me.
xxx
