well, havnt been on a while, been trying to sort mum out, just about think i have sorted everything now, money, bills etc, got mum and emergency call necklace and sorted befriending scheme for her and a nurse, i went back to nurse last week and that was hard, kept having people come up and ask why i hadnt been to work, so had to go over losing dad again and again.., had a strange week, i have had a bad tooth for months and months, finally went to dentist tuesday about it, she said i could have root canal or remove it thurdsay so i chose to have tooth out, she put me on dihydrocodeine for pain, took one when i went out of dentist, didnt know what they were, got home and felt terrible, stopped taking right away, just felt terrible, then went to dentist thursday, she couldnt get my tooth out, its where dad used to go and i got quite emotional, i had 10 injections and still felt the pain, i went out of the room as they were going to try and ring the hospital so i could go there, i sat there and thought, what would dad say, he would tell me to get my bottom back in that chair, lol, so i went back in, had 2 more injections, sat there and took the pain and had tooth out, i really do think dad was with me giving me strength, also, just before we lost dad we booked our wedding, i have been quite up set and confused about what to do, i dreamed about dad the other night, just him and me in a room, i was crying that he hadnt even seen my dress, he said he had and its beautiful, and he said he will be with me when we get married, he will always be with me, im just missing him so much, but its strange when im on my own sometimes it really does feel like he is with me
