just an update on me, dont know if anyone out there is interested LOLOL, its weird i thought once i went back to work and normality life, it would all become easier but now the actual physcial has gone the emotional has started, i have such dark thoughts alot of the time, and i think its normal, have arranged to start some counselling. Found out recently that BC and Ovarian runs in the family although there isno gene there, my Dad bless him said my nan died from growths in her woman bits, he is nearly 80 so after some delving with him, discovered she more than likely had ovarian cancer, she actually died from a blood clot after an op to remove a growth. so there is my Nan, then her 2 daughters, 1 of ovarian, then my sister of BC and secondary bone, then me, then on my mums side her sister had ovarian, so this makes me feel bleak.
hair has started growing back but i am getting pretty sick and tired of people saying 'oohh your hairs growing fast', never ask how i am, but i think thats because they dont know what to say, its like i HAD bc and now its gone its gone, never mentioned, like it never happened, and i know its gone but the emotional side that is left is huge!!!
anyway moan over back to work....hope everyone is as well as they can be, love and light to you all xxx
