well have known two weeks now, i have def passed throuhg the five stages of greif and i cant tell you anger was the worst, i stil lhave tears but life seems more normal now. have been concentrating on being positive and healing, got a friend of mine to attune me for reiki level 1, so i can now do daily healing on me, which is very helpful and really relaxing. i have also started to sort my special room where i can go to meditate and be me -
have also finished work finally, cant believe i was intitially turned down for special leave by my LM, but after an appeal and with my unions help, HR decided my LM was mad and put me on immediate special leave. its such a releif cos its one less thing to think about.
have told loads of people and only a couple have let me feel like a leper, which is good! most have been helpful, taking me to hospital appointments and coming round for tea and listening to me whinge lol
anyway not long now till 10th, i am actually excited in a strange way to get it over and done with,, once i know the histology i can then fight it - have MRI on friday and pre op next monday.
