ok i think the loss of hair is clearly other peoples issues and not mine, went to Tesco today without a bandana, had had a shower this morning so more came out, it doesnt define who i am, but clearly losing my hair means my legs, arms and brain doesnt work - as i walked to the self service checkout with about 3 things a woman declared she would open a till just for me, to help me out, i laughed, said no its fine i can manage! maybe i am becoming sensitive! i felt liberated not to have a bandana on, it declares so much to the world, it big bold letters I HAVE CANCER! well i dont, i am only being treated for cancer, cancer is not who i am! as for the hair well the ears are cold! lol - but i dont care - am off to London tomorrow and will probably wear a bandana, I wonder if people will give up their seats for me??!!! Yeah Right lol
am feeling good today, only 4 more to go which means i only have about 12 more weeks of this crap then life is back in the fast lane, dont think i will ever be the same but i wont let it define who i will become. I keep telling people i dont have cancer, i did but i dont anymore!
as for the tiredmess OMG lorry smacked into me i think, yesterday couldnt even be bothered to go to the loo, sat in bed all day watching Harry Potter DVDs and Charmed! but then when will i get the chance or have a valid excise for doing that again - enjoy it while it lasts!!
appetite is back today, which is good and taste coming back - which is nice got fed up of eating dishwater, or think thats what it was, tasted like it, had beef stew lsast night, and it was yummy!!! cris said too much gravy but i couldnt tell there was anythng wrong with it, i think he is getting fed up with curry and chilli bless him
