well what a couple of days i have had, yesterday i went to get a blood test, i was already having reservations about the chemo, really not wanting it, dont think i need, its just chasing a maybe. so anyway i went for a blood test, got caught in 2 road works and then they couldnt get any blood.
I am a very spritual person, believing everything happens for a reason, so the 2 road works were already a sign, then they couldnt get the blood out of me, sign umber 3. I called the chemo ward who said to go in today and get a blood test and chemo
and more road works, red traffic lights, couldnt park, chemo ward was full to the brim, waitign aroudn etc etc, then when they puyt the canulla in it hurt so much, i couldnt sit with it in, so i decided that was it, i wasnt meant to have it, asked them to remove it, much to their disgust and i left.
i have done alot of research recently on invasive ductal carcinoma, and TNBC and to be honest yes it was aggressive but it was detected early, the odds are good, with healing and positivity lets hope it doesnt come back, my views are mine only but i 100% believe them. Lousie Hay is to blame.
so there we are no more chemo, will still have the radio because its localised, i will however be giving up all chemicals ort as much as i can, no more deodorant, no more hair dye, organic food comes in, no more crap, no sun, etc etc. I have already planted my garden ouyt with organic veg / fruit. time to get fit and healthy my health is important - but i do believe i can make a difference with it.
