Well all the drugs seem to be working and he is not in so much pain. I have just made a lasagne at his request so hopefully it will make him feel much better. Its awful to see him suffer. The palliative care nurse rang this morning to see how he was and left me with all the detail I need for getting help over the weekend. So I guess we are lucky especailly when I read other's posts who are left with little or even no support.
We have family coming tomorrow so are expecting a busy day. One thing I don't do much of these days is running round after visitors and feeding them. It is now a case of come, put the kettle on if you want a cuppa, and there's a cafe and a pub down the road if you're hungry. My mum (75 years old) lives close and always says to people coming here 'pop in if you want some grub' to take the burden off me.
Toni really wants to be up and about when the family come. His mum is coming for the first time since his diagnosis so he wants to be on top form for her. The only thing is that he starts agitating about being okay which sionetimes makes him worse. I told him not to worry about it - if he's up then fine, but if not then they can pop up and say hello. It's his call and that's how it has to be.
So I have mixed a rather nice gin and tonic for myself, the lasagne is coming along nicely and we will probably both be fast asleep as this dreadful year comes to a close.
The only thing is the uncertainty that 2010 will bring.
