just thought id share with you all an arguement that ive just had with my cousin.... as it sort of goes with the last blog i did....because in my last blog i explained how people didnt understand, and how this site has been a great help..... but man she has reallllly wound me up!!!!!!!!!
why cant people even try to understand.... =(
omg do u sit on facebook all day!!ur always on line lol
19:07Me
yeahh pretty much lol thats when im not out for lunch or at appoitnemnts
19:08Amy
u need to get out more lol u not goin bak to work?
Me
not yet no, dnt feel ready
19:09Amy
ul feel better and wont be sat on here all the time lol dont u get bored?.
19:11Me
cuz i dont sit here all the time amz... most days and nerli every weekend im away, and if im on the other days thats cuz im on my way out or summut...
im havin counselling every two weeks, still suffer with breathlessness and everything else, still get tired easily
19:14Amy
awww but maybe ur still suffering because u need a change u know like a different scene everyday,start5 gettin ur life back do normal,u know wat i mean? u not goin bak to work then??!
19:15Me
yeah il be goin back to work when i feel mentally ready. when ive got more confidence,
i am doin all i can... and i wont be goin back to that job i want a new job but try tellin a new employer that u had cancer and that uve got depression and havin counselling, it just wont work
19:19Amy
do u not like that job then?theyl listen emma ur not the only 1 whos had cancer!!
its discrimination if they dnt!!i thought u were fine seen as u had ur party and goin away etc,
are u really depressed then?
19:20Me
dont think il go back to somewher that said il loose weight havin cancer...yep i am depressed...even if i am doin stuff.. and no i no im not the only one thats had cancer, but i will still get turned away
anyways, wot u doin with urself nowadays? wher u livin now? why didnt u come my party? not spoke to u in months?
Amy
i never came because we never speek so didnt see the point really. well my dad had cancer and hes worked all his life they didnt turn him away. why dnt u try college or u just want to be at home? im very well thanx, hows u and john?
me
well if thats how u wanna be amz then fine ok, if we dont speak why u askin all these questions,
ur not interested anyways, and il go back to work when im good and ready to go back to work,
im only 20... so thers plenty of time for me to go back to work
Amy
i was making coversation as we havnt spoke seein how u werre
Me
because u never bothered to pop up and see me only once in the beginning..
u come online never say hello. say ud be here but u wernt... u even changed ur number and didnt say. n then u never came my party to even celebrate. and then u keep asking bout work, i dont want to sit at home, but i have no confidence to go somewher else at the minute, i told u im having counselling, and u ask me if im really depressed. yeahh i am...or i wudnt be goin counselling.. ok fair enough u wanna make convo but just feels like ur naggin at me bout work
Amy
Emma im not naggin u its reality. im not guna be a hypocrit why should i just come and see u because u have cancer?!! my dad had cancer and he went threw worse than you emma!! u had ur party at 5 weeks after u were cleared which is why i thought u were going back to work and movin on!!
Me
amy!! CANCER IS NO JOKE !!!!! nor is it to compare who was sickest or illest!! u wudnt no wot i went thru!!! so just f**k right off!!!!!!!!!! cancer is a matter of life or death amy!! either way, me and ur dad faced dying!! so no, ther is no worse!!!!!
Amy
im not bloody comparing emma im basicly saying u never died u made threw it so get out there and start enjoying urself!!! dnt get soo workd up
maybe ur depressed because u read too much into things?
19:37Me
then why say ur dad went through worse than me
cancer is still cancer amy
doesnt matter wher u get it
how u get it its still shit u try bein in my shoes u sure wouldnt like it and no i dont read into anything
just dnt no who or how u dare to even say what uve said to me and im sayin no more amy i was fine b4 u started tlkin now uve wound me up
Amy
u type to fast woman!! (arguement finished there)
is it just me over reacting??? or was she just way out of line??? either way, its got me really mad... just shows dont it that
sorry its a rant just needed to get it out!!! =(
