Well after all my whinging someone has just managed to make me feel really guilty. Someone reading my blog on a cancer support site thought initially that I was the one suffering with cancer.
It upset me a bit, but the more I think about it, yes I know the blog is sometimes self indulgant and may look like wallowing in self pity, but I honestly believe that the blog is meant to be used as a tool for emotional release.
It is meant to be a journey of how I am dealing with this, emotionally. How mum is coping physically, and other significant events along the way.
Cancer doesn't just effect the person, but the families too and I wanted a brutally honest account of all the emotions that are involved, even the selfish ones.
Today made me realise just HOW personal the blog is to me, and how deep it does probe my emotions.
I can't feel any shame for wanting to share my felings with you all. Anyone that knows me personally will know that I communicate my feelings, thoughts and emotions a lot better by written word, rather than spoken.
Dear hydeangel, please don't allow guilt to overwhelm you - I don't think anyone on here wants to hurt anyone's feelings - and yes we are all affected by a loved one's cancer. I don't speak to anyone about my cancer but when I come on here I feel able to blurt out anything on my mind and its really theraputic. Even better when I amlistened to and someone spends the time to respond. So, I am sure the person who responded to you didn't want to hurt you or make you feel guilty, we all put our foot in the wrong place at one time or another, me especially! Once its out there we can't take it back, only say sorry. I wish your mum well and you strength to deal with your life right now. Take care, god bless, Ann x
Hi Hydeangel, I agree with Ann, I think it was a misunderstanding. I did read the post you are talking about.
Like I said in my reply then cancer does affect everyone involved with cancer, not just the patient and you're right this site is here for us to offload and say what we want without criticism, so don't feel guilty about getting your feelings off your chest.
On another thread I use regularly one of the ladies I chat with said some of the doctors involved in her mother's treatment were shoddy and another person came on saying don't call doctors shoddy. My reply was that if that is someone's opinion they are entitled to say so without reprimand.
The point I am trying to make is that you should not feel you have to watch what you are saying. I really don't think the person who replied meant to upset you.
Hi, I agree with Christine totally, i too read your other blog and i have also been where you are now and those feelings you have are normal and it does affect us too.
Don't be too hard on yourself, me there for your mum but take time for you too, if you get too stressed you won't be any use to your mum.
Every day, every moment counts babe.....don't waste any of them.
We are not here to run anybody down. To me it sounds like a misunderstanding too.WE all have sre good and bad days so why should anyone be different. We are here for eachother one Family and one Fight against Cancer. So lets keep it in the Family.
Hey stop giving yourself hard time, if we all talk about how it makes us feel it not only is a release for us emotionally but helps otthers The Mac family has helped me thanks to people like you being honest, thank you.Hope you have more betterdays than not .love nd cuddles Newrocks x x x
