It’s been a weird week. For the first time since I was diagnosed (25th November) I haven’t had any medical appointments or treatments this week and it has felt very odd.
I was so lucky to go straight from diagnosis into a whirlwind of more scans, further consultations and was having my first chemotherapy session within the week. But it’s meant I’ve been on the go with this fight from the off, so it feels so odd not to be doing anything and just waiting for my surgery.
Of course I’m not “just waiting” I’m recovering from chemo and I am noticing I am feeling a bit better. My energy is slowly returning, my tummy is slowly getting back to normal and I have even wanted the occasional glass of wine again (as well as my now usual 8/9 pints of water!). I know I need to be fit for my op and that’s what these in-between weeks are for but I have never been good at just sitting and it feels like I’m not fighting the cancer at the moment!
That said I’ve got plenty to occupy my mind, I’ve had the info about my surgery and isolating before hand. Not just me but my family, for us that meant making the decision about whether the boys continue going to school just before my operation. They have adapted so well since going back to school and it’s so easy to see how much it is benefitting them being able to see their friends as well as the learning itself. So we took the decision to keep them going but for the days leading up to my operation where it is most crucial they will go and stay with my parents (who are in a childcare bubble with us).
That way they can continue to go to school, hubby and I can isolate fully and we can be reunited once I am out of hospital. Thankfully with modern technology we can still “see” each other each day and I’m sure they will view it as a little holiday! Though we haven’t told them yet as we don’t want them to panic/dwell on it so we will let them know a few days before, making it more of an exciting adventure in the hope they worry less about me!
So in the meantime whilst everyone else is gradually enjoying seeing more friends and meet ups once again we are closing off and being careful. But it’s definitely for the best! Last thing I want is a delay to my operation, so best to play it safe. Hopefully in a few weeks once I’ve recovered I will be able to start seeing people again.
In related news though on Monday I have my second COVID vaccination so I’m looking forward to feeling like I have a super power!
Take care everyone xx
