I’ve now completed one full round of treatment which for me is three weeks of chemotherapy. One with all the drugs (Paclitaxel, also known as taxol, Carboplatin, Herceptin and Pertuzumab), then two weeks of just Taxol. I will need to have 6 rounds of this so 1 down 5 to go sounds quite good!
Whilst, if you’ve read my other entries you’ll know, I have not been without side effects I’ve also so far been relatively lucky. I have managed to carry on working and still spend some time with my boys. Even if it transpires from here on out the effects pile up and things get a lot harder (which I’m expecting) I’m grateful for a slow start as it were.
My focus this week is the boys. I have my next day of treatment on Christmas Eve which happens to be the one with all the drugs. So how I will be on Christmas Day is anyone’s guess. Luckily we are in a bubble with my parents (for childcare anyway) and so they will be joining us on Christmas Day. My aim is to make the day as normal as possible for the boys so even if I end up spending all day in bed they can still have a Christmas lunch and feel Christmassy. One benefit of going through all this during this crazy time is I think there will be a fair few make-up Christmasses later in the year for all the families that can’t get together anyway!
I feel at peace with the fact that it’s going to get harder from now but I feel ready for it and almost calm. I’m resigned to the knowledge that I can’t do what I want to...for now. My wants are on hold. But only whilst I undergo treatment. If I do this right and kick this thing I can get better and then start to build back up to me again! Get back in the kitchen and back out singing and working more, when that time comes bring it on. But for now I shall endeavour to embrace the sofa and the slippers!
Take care everyone x
