It feels like I should celebrate this milestone I can't quite believe I am already halfway through the scheduled 18 sessions of chemotherapy, that's brilliant! It does feel great to think it is on the count down from here. I'm also relieved to be able to say that after a recent scan the lump in my breast has more than halved and the ones in my lymph nodes could not be detected so thankfully the chemo seems to be working!
But that doesn't mean any change to the course of treatment. I will still have another 9 sessions, I will still have surgery to remove the lymph nodes and my nipple and the area which did contain the lump even if it is no longer there by the time I have the operation! So I still have to survive the next 9 weeks of chemo with the likely cumulative side effects. But the end of these stages of treatment is hopefully in sight, at least it feels like it is.
However, my sons, or rather my eldest son, keeps asking me for more definitive answers of when I will be better, which sadly I cannot answer. He wants to know when I will have my operation, when I will be recovered and when I will be back running around with them properly again, will it be the same time when the Coronavirus disappears?! So I'm finding it hard not being able to provide those answers. But I'm not alone in that, no one knows when we will be out of this lockdown!
Of course most of the time my son chooses to ask these questions once he is in bed and should be going to sleep so I'm not sure whether he actually has any worries or is just trying to stay awake a little bit longer! So for now I shall try and celebrate the half way point and the good news from the recent scans. There's a way to go, of course there is but we will get there.
As ever, take care everyone. Xx
