Mum and Cancer and Me

Hello, 

So second post, its been a while since my last one. They've stopped all chemo treatment with mum and we know we don't have long. She's in hospital and I guess the realisation that this is going to be slow and painful is a tough one to bear. You prepare and try and prevent the final outcome and in the end it doesn't just happen as you expected. Its all been very emotional but I haven't really been doing anything…

I don't know why I've decided to join. I am not sure if writing on here will help me in the slightest. But since finding out that mum has terminal cancer there seems to be schism between me and the rest of the world - who just don't get it. 

And why would they? Watching the person that you love the most, suffer, lose hope and confront their own mortality - while you wait with them, helpless is not a place…