Having got over the hectic xmas prep, I had my second chemo Dec 22nd so xmas was as good as it could be although I did feel quite rough. Straingley though, this didn't bother me as much as I thought it would, I was confident that I would be starting to feel better by the new year and my daughters birthday on the 3rd Jan.( More wrapping presants ahhh!!) Gratefully I was right, the sickness passed and my taste buds came back to life so my new years eve curry went down a storm and boy did I make up for the lack of appitite the week before lol !! My daughters birthday was fab, party went really well, and for her, everything was normal, which is all I wished for her really X
It all got me to thinking.... what will be will be.... I know what condition I'm in, although I still get a shock sometimes when I look in the mirror having lost both my hair and what little colour I had in my face. I am realising a pattern in my symptoms after the chemo and the best I can do is accept it and be as prepared that I can be. There will always be the doubt of whats to come, the unknown, future treatments, these thoughts consume me for most of the time, but yes what will be Will be and theres nothing I can do about it so my motto at the moment is simpley....
Just for today..... I will appreciate myself for getting this far and exchange wild moments of panic for peaceful moments of trust!!
This is another little gem quote from a book my good friend gave me and I can't thank her enough, it has helped me keep perspective through all of this.
Best wishes and big hugs to everyone out there and I hope all is going well for you all too XX
FormerMember
Hi Mother,
Glad your Daughters Birthday went well. I like your outlook on the future. You are a strong Lady and with your strength and caring. You will manage whatever lies ahead. All the best and good luck.
I'm glad you are feeling this way as although its difficult it is also very positive. When you have cancer there is nothing you can do to change the path it leads you on...of course you can choose what treatment to have and where, you can choose whether you let it take over your life or not but everything else is decided by someone else...doctors, God if you believe in that, fate whatever. As Sarsfield said you are strong and that comes through in your posts. It takes a little while to get to this point but you have done it. You will get through this and whatever happens you will deal with it xxx
