Had my first fec chemo on wednesday. All quite scary as didn't know what to expect. Felt very sick since but am gratful hat I haven't been sick. Today my mouth feels tender. What has suprised me the most is how restless I am during the evening, I seem ok until about 5pm then I find I am getting grumpy and cannot get comfortable at all, no matter how I sit or lay. Outbursts of pure emotion hit me like a brick wall and I often sit crying quite uncontrollable, for how I feel now, why me thoughts, and the effects this must all be having on my family. Yes feeling quite sorry for myself at the mo, which is just not like me normally, but even the strong get emotional I guess.
Hope anyone reading this is bearing up, just as we have too, and my beast wishes go to all fighting this vile and heartless disease.
