I am normally a happy person, despite the stress and fear that cancer bursts into your life, I still try and hold on to as much optimism as I can. But it is hard, it is too difficult to be happy all of the time, to not be afraid, to not be angry at the cards I have been dealt over the past four years. I hate that chemotherapy can mean that a day where I feel happy, genuinely happy can turn on it's head so quickly and I find myself sat screaming into a cushion in tears for no reason. Countless times I have sat with my family to watch a film together and half way through I find myself hiding behind a cushion because I cannot stop crying for no reason. It is ridiculous and one of the only chemotherapy side effects I haven't got a way of handling.
I know this is a normal thing, to be angry and to cry but I just never know how to stop it. I am so tired of chemo mood swings and I just wanted to vent my frustration and ask if anyone else had any tips on how to deal with them? I would really appreciate the help.
Thank you.
RedHare
