I am normally a happy person, despite the stress and fear that cancer bursts into your life, I still try and hold on to as much optimism as I can. But it is hard, it is too difficult to be happy all of the time, to not be afraid, to not be angry at the cards I have been dealt over the past four years. I hate that chemotherapy can mean that a day where I feel happy, genuinely happy can turn on it's head so quickly and…
