So after a couple of hours at Blackburn hospital I came away feeling very drained. I had to go straight to work and all I wanted to do was curl up in bed and go to sleep so I didn't have to think about it.
Treatment
The radiotherapy means i'll be in hospital for about half an hour but the Chemo means i'll be in all day.
The chemo and radio therapy will kill off my eggs and induce the menopause meaning I wont be able to cook a bun in the oven. There is an option to harvest eggs - and think about surrogacy later but because I have a hormone implant as my birth control method and this stops ovulation, no egg harvest is possible, and even if it were possible egg harvesting also delays treatment up to 6 weeks. THIS IS NOT AN OPTION FOR US!!!! The Oncologist is waiting to hear back from the surgeon to see if there is an option of moving my ovaries to above the level of where the radio therapy is going to be but again if this is available it will delay treatment . We are going to speak to a personal friend who is a gp and in a past life was a gynie registrar in hospital so get a second opinion on this before we make a decision. The oncologist also said something about the chemo effecting my DNA structure so if I did get pregnant (which would be a miracle I'm told) the fetus could have abnormalities .
The treatment we will deal with its just going to be something else i have to do everyday for a while. I will not let this define me I am Kathy Nutter a teacher, girlfriend, sister, daughter and friend before I am a cancer patient. But the chances of me ever being a mum are very slim something which is quite hard to deal with for both Carl and I.
But every cloud has a silver lining the radio therapy shrinks the vagina and dries it up so as soon as I finish my Brachytherapy I have been given what can only be described as large plastic hollo tampax or really bad dildos to keep the vagina supple. But instead of using these, regular sex works just the same or even an ann summers toy lol. So as part of my after care medication i have to have sex everyday for 6 weeks and then 3 times a week for 3 years so if anyone has any uppers for Carl to keep his energy levels up it will be gratefully appreciated .
