It's all so wearing. Weeks and weeks of chemo and hope, then a few days of Markus feeling not so good, and the big questions come up again - scans next week - is everything ok, are the breathing difficulties just a cold, or something more sinister? Is the shoulder pain rheumatism, or is there really something there ( hence the MRI on Thursday)? Is the exhaustion normal after 22 weeks of Taxol? Will we be happy, or will we have to refocus?
I guess we all go through this, but it doesn't make it any easier. The longer it goes on, the more I have the feeling of being stretched like a rubber band, ready to go 'ping' at an inopportune moment. And Markus says little, concentrates on doing up friends' computers, just grunts occasionally. Wish he would complain more.
Wish us well next Tuesday and Thursday, friends!
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Thanks all of you. Now I have a big wide smile and feel a lot better - because I could say how I feel and because you all answered me. Stops me feeling alone!
I could hug everyone today - these weird emotional ups and downs! So please everyone, feel hugged or whatever, because I really am so grateful.
Of course things will be fine next week! Hope is what we all need!
hi pusspins keep ur chin up we r all rooting for you, i enjoyed our short chat on monday hope we can do it again, tell marcus i was asking after him lol
