It's all so wearing. Weeks and weeks of chemo and hope, then a few days of Markus feeling not so good, and the big questions come up again - scans next week - is everything ok, are the breathing difficulties just a cold, or something more sinister? Is the shoulder pain rheumatism, or is there really something there ( hence the MRI on Thursday)? Is the exhaustion normal after 22 weeks of Taxol? Will we be happy, or will we have to refocus?
I guess we all go through this, but it doesn't make it any easier. The longer it goes on, the more I have the feeling of being stretched like a rubber band, ready to go 'ping' at an inopportune moment. And Markus says little, concentrates on doing up friends' computers, just grunts occasionally. Wish he would complain more.
Wish us well next Tuesday and Thursday, friends!
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I know how you feel, I feel the same its seems that for the rest of my life however long I will be battling this disease, I have got to have a ct scan today to decide if they will continue with the chemo or not, then an appointment with the oncologist on the 10th June who although very nice do not find very positive very much looks on the black side which I do not need, facts yes, but not doom and gloom I can do that myself. I feel as though my hubby is fed up with the whole business very supportive to start with but now its all become a bit of a bor and he goes off a lot now doing his photography and gets involved with groups of people. I know its bad for him and I almost feel as though I am holding his life up now, although he would probably say I am being stupid.
I wish you well next Tuessday and Thursday and hope the results are good.
I think you will find most other patients and carers feel like this. Yet somehow that rubber band of life manages to stretch a little farther each time.
My very best wishes for next Tuesday and Thursday -fingers crossed tightly xx
Hiya , Pat! Its lifes biggest worry waiting for results, waiting , waiting , waiting! Blows your brains dont it ! Cant help you with this , dont know anybody that can. All we can tell you is , there are people all over the world wishing you both the very best ! Lots are praying for the very best results ! If any one deserves them , then its you two ! Love ya both loads and cant wait to see you both , until then .......................KEEP SMILING xxxxx Caz & Geoff
Sounds as if you need to let off steam a little. I find a trip to the bottle bank and all that smashing of glass very therapeutic. Or, if you really want to frighten the horses have a go at some loud opera (singing it I mean). Seriously, all the best for next week. Let us know how you get on.
