Monday, 16th May 2011
Well, tomorrow is the day John makes a decision about whether to carry on with his chemo treatment. We've had a bit of a bad day today.
Gemma woke me up at 5.30 to go outside and then proceeded to sniff her way round the garden which didn't put me in a very good mood.
Then, later (not at 5.30!) I decided to mow the lawn which is beginning to look like a hay field and immediately ran over the flex - good job we've got a circuit breaker!
To cap it all John drove over some dog poo in his scooter!
I apologised to John for getting so upset about these incidents and explained that they seemed even worse because of what he's going through and the decision he's going to have to make tomorrow. He then said that he would carry on which is not what I meant! It's totally his decision. If the chemo is making him feel so rotten then I think he should tell them to stop.
I think we're going to have a good heart to heart talk to the doctor tomorrow and ask him/her exactly what they think the prognosis will be if he does stop. Time to face up to things but I'm dreading it.
Madge x x x x
