Goodbye IGEV...?

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Sunday morning; been home since about 1pm Saturday, hoorah to escape the hospital!
I DO love my bed!!

Actually, I nearly didn't get a bed!
Went in Monday morning with my bag, ready to have R in Windsor suite and then get admitted to ward upstairs as before. As the R was finished and they began to talk of getting paperwork done, the ward informed us that there was no bed now, and to try again tomorrow. Well, it HAD to start Tuesday as the timing was crucial to the stem cells being harvested on 24th! So, I called up my mother, asked her to come get me, messed up all her arrangements and confused Deri when she came in from school haha! I DID get an extra night in my bed, but still, they've known for weeks I needed a room, but, maybe an emergency came in, who knows :)
 
SO, back in at 10 am Tuesday. Had the chemo on W suite, which finished at about 1/2 pm. Waited until 5pm for ward to find a room. W suite nurses knock off at 4.30 usually so it was just me, Kay and Sarah twiddling our thumbs with me getting a bit cheesed off! They walked me up with my drip, and I was put in the assessment room until one of the 4 folk leaving could go. I had dinner in there - my family brought me food as unfortunately hossie dinner was crap, and they left about 7 ... about 8/8.30, after a nurse poked her head in and said I could have a bed on the 6 bed ward - and my face must have said all sorts - that a room appeared for me. Hurrah!

I was overtired then and stayed up til midnight reading, nearly getting an excited visit from an elderly fella called Brian who had escaped from his bed, obviously confused, trying to get the nurses to allow him his freedom and then being walked past my room he saw me sat up and nearly joined me haha!

The R and the IGEV went well, although I have been prone to lots of frequent hot flushes this time round, and a little bit of nausea yesterday and this morning. But otherwise the week was ok. Lumpy had started to stick out just a tiny bit before I went in, but was back down by Tuesday afternoon.
Not that the doctors could tell; the registrar made herself busy prodding my tummy only and listening to my lungs, and my poor consultant was not around as her father had died over xmas and funeral fell in the week I was in... :( 

The regular registrar from Windsor suite poked her head around the door briefly and said 'bone marrow tests look fine' and disappeared. Well, that's great! But, erm, maybe someone could chat to me about it for 2 minutes?? Also my Hickman line dressing was not changed as they seemed to be headless chickens and I was too woozy to remind them, but have dressings at home and going back on Wednesday to Windsor suite for bloods etc.
So, overall, it went ok but was a bit chaotic! And should be the final IGEV, so no more chemo until I go in for the 'transplant'.

Had lots of lovely visitors, friends and family, and managed to finish one book (The Help), start and finish the one Meg bought me for xmas (Snuff - Terry Pratchett) and then start another one Friday night! I did get  a bit of a headache at one point haha!

Twice I woke in the night feeling as though I wanted to cry; I think the SCT treatment is so much in the forefront of my mind - more so the not being around for 2/3 weeks!

So my stepdad is coming to pick us up to take us back there for lunch today. They are good, although still bonkers. They swapped two of my tables around in sitting room as kept bumping into the bigger one, although it folded up and was much less obtrusive then the short one! ? ! Haha!! I'll shuffle things round a bit in a week or so. And my cup I keep on kitchen windowsill has disappeared; doesn't it feel odd when folk move your stuff around?? Bless 'em.

So 3 days of harvesting to look forward to - I have asked hospital to book a taxi or something as mum away and have to be there by 9 and I can't drive coz it will make me tired etc. And then .. Vicky's birthday do, which us girls that all used to live in London for a while and be best buddies, use as an excuse to travel across/down/over etc to catch up with each other... this will be end of month, few days after harvesting. None of them have seen me without hair before ( we are scattered all over the country now), and usually Alex and I are the naughty ladies who hand out the back door smoking... she'll have to lurk on her own now! We all stay over for the one night - we leave kids and men behind, Vicky kicks her kids out to friends too! And I AM looking forward to some R&R as Alex will be driving me :)

Love and Hugs to all, and thank you for all the lovely messages, even if I couldn't respond whilst I was in, I read the posts - and they DO help!  :)) xxxxxxxxxxxx

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    If they have any extra cells left over from harvesting, can they clone you? It would be so nice to have a spare. I meant for us, because I am a selfish cow, but for you, too, the two of you could take turns doing stuff and having time off. I think it would solve everything.

    Well, maybe not everything.

    The hospital sounds way too chaotic and disorganised. I think instead of Troll bracelets we should get 'WWNBD' bands: What Would Nye Bevan Do? Nye Bevan would start punching heads, that's what Nye would do. Alas, he's gone, and there are no politicians like that anymore. Possibly there are no more politicians at all, only thugs and PR men. What am I even talking about?

    *hugs* for feeling like crying. I know it was a while ago, but you can save them for when you need them next. Or just have them anyway.

    xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hello! As we talked in person (hahaaaaa) about most of this :) All I am going to say is:

    Remember when they first menitoned the thought of you going in for 5 days for the IGEV thingy and you were really worried and upset about it and worried about Deri etc and wasn't sure if you could do it etc etc blah blah.... well here you are 3 lots of it down the line and you are ok and the kids are ok and you got away with only a table move this time :D and no redecoration etc....

    So, you will be ok going in next time too. (I know you will worry, cos here is me telling you how it''ll be fine and I'm worried about going in for my op so can't really talk... but I guess that is how it works eh? You'll tell me to stop being silly and how its all good etc so I will tell you the same... and actually you would be a bit weird if you didn't feel like crying about it)

    AND no more igev chemo.... just the stem cell thingy and that could be it... gone! How cool would that be eh? and then spas and birthdays and life! whoo hooo

    You hang on in there and you've broken the back of it now... last little bump to go over. And as usual me and all the other lovelies are here to hold your hand over that bump....

    Oh and think of how many missions you can get through in 2-3 weeks!!! New nurses too... hahaaaaa. I'm going to start planning now and I hope we are not in at the same time so I can visit you

    Welcome home and cwtches galore

    Little Myxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    oooh Hilary popped in while I was typing... I LIKE the idea of cloning!!!! I've got a lab at school so sneak a few extras off and then pass them onto me and I'll do the business...

    I think a clone of me would be good too so one could go to work and the other stay at home..

    Mind you, if you ever read Calvin and Hobbes and his transmogrifier, it would probably all end in tears... :D

    xxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Ems,

    Well if your Welsh weather is anything like here, you've got a perfect winter Sunday to enjoy, cold, frosty but brilliantly sunny. I had to pour hot water on the birds' water bowls, poor things couldn't drink blocks of ice! And we've had to re-fill all the feeders, they are so hungry, and word has gone out on the bush telegraph so all their mates are turning up. Even Fritz (our robin, re-named because Tim says he's German) has just got on with eating instead of bullying the dunnocks.

     But never mind my waffle, isn't your Mum a star? My Mum used to re-organise my stuff when she babysat my daughter; it was really annoying because I knew she'd been rifling through my private stuff too, & was using the "tidying" as cover! I'm sure your Mum would never be so intrusive though.

    I know what you mean, a bit, about feeling like crying - I had a good old howl when the final chemo cannula was taken out, and got a hug from the chemo sister! It all gets so oppressive & sometimes you feel it's never going to end, but as LM says, you've only a little way to go now and judging by your past performances you'll do it in style. 

    Enjoy today, tomorrow will be even better!

    Hove & lugs,

    Annie  xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Ems

    Well you got to escape the hospital. Daughter and Grandson are tunnelling out and should make it tomorrow :-) Seriously, things worked out for the best for them as infections and heart murmurs were picked up immediately, and that would not have been the case if she had had him at home. She has also had loads of support helping her to breast feed. I felt as if they were in a really safe environment as soon as I walked onto the unit, and the staff have been wonderful. Top marks to B'ham Women's Hospital :-)

    Anyway back to you my lovely lady. Yes, we have been through loads of shite, and you still have some to go through, but I just burst into tears when I saw Adam for the first time, as I realised this was the reason I had gone through so much, and it made all the sickness, pain, inconvenience, worthwhile. I'm so glad I lived to hug my little man.

    You too have lots to live for.....your lovely girls, and a crazy weekend with your friends....and don't forget that when you are over your treatment that you have that new business to set up......You are indeed LM's escape route from teaching......What was it now ....the 3 Twytches????

    Helpers that are bonkers are allowed. Its those that are bonkers that stress you out that need to be dumped. You can drive each other mad moving tables back and forth.

    I admire your tenacity in being able to read BOOKS! I had the concentration of a gnat, and its not much better now. Also think that you were entitled to burst into tears and have a huge tantrum after that week.

    Good luck with the stem cell harvest. Are you at the same hospital? Hope they get their act together this time. Although I had different parts of treatment in different hospitals they were pretty well co-ordinated....I think Haematology Depts in West Midlands are perhaps more joined up. I know that several hospitals in the area knew my case very well as they had monthly meetings, where they discussed ongoing cases. When I visited different hospitals I was amazed how much they knew about me!

    Hey, you picked up a boyfriend along the way. Was he rich and lived in a big castle? All your money worries sorted in a flash....oops hope he didn't!

    take care Ems....you are a step nearer to getting your life back...and it will be better because you will focus more on what is really important in your life, because there has to be a plus point to going through all this doesn't there?

    Love and hugs to you all, and a big one for your big girl, Deri XXXXXXXXXX(((((((((())))))))))))))XXXXXXXXX