Well in some ways the year seems to have flown past, in others not so much. I miss having David around to back me up with the children and as a consequence they push me to my limits and sometimes beyond.
Last New Years eve I tripped while cleaning the stairs after one of my son's was sick, and tore the legiment in my left thumb, I had to have an operation - fortunatly day surgery. But this meant I was reliant on my parents for support with the kids for 48 hours as I didn't have a partner to help.
Managed to do the everyday tasks to get the kids up and ready for school, one handed :-).
The times it hits most are the anniversarys and birthdays, as well as when there are things on at the school, parent evenings where the children aren't allowed to attend, as I don't have someone to just leave the children with.
Some good news, I have found this really nice guy, we have been together now for about 3 months. It is nice having company in the evenings when the kids are asleep. However he doesn't want to tell the kids off as he doesn't want them not to like him. But it is early days yet. I am sure this will come in time as they push him to test how far they can go.
This year was our second Christmas without David, though we had my new partner, it was different without David, and I did miss him.
The children and I talk about the memories we have of David and all the things we used to do with him all the time. I think it is important for them, as I don't want them to forget him. Also it helps me too.
