Let me be scared

  • Thoughts from the chemo mist.

    This is not going to be happy or uplifting, informative of even useful but a self-centered piece of rambling - but sorrry I need to write this down.

    I know how lucky I have been so far and that what I have been through is for my own good but it has ground me down. I apoligise to all of you who are in far worse situations than me I don't mean to belittle the enormity of what you have faced I can't imagine how some of…

  • Phase 4 of my treatment - the and into the 2nd year.

    Well I sdtarted my first of 12 planned cycles of folfox yesterday and all went well apart from the fact that I have lost my mobile - probably at the chemo suite they are looking for it.My husband came to collect me as we live a long way from the hospital and he had to queue 30 mins for the car park and still couldn't get in so he phoned me.The parking for the hospital is really bad and makes the visit really drag out…

  • 10 months from diagnosis and secondary tumour now removed.

    Well finally I have had surgery to remove the tumour in my liver and I am now at home recovering. It was all so much easier than my big op in March as I was lucky enough to have laparoscopic surgery and even though the op lasted just under 5 hours I feel I am improving day by day instead of week by week!

    What I am finding hard is getting my mind set to wait again - 6 weeks for follow up  with consultant and then I don…

  • All set to go.........

    Well I was all set to go this morning. Got up at 5.30am and arrived at the hospital for my second operation - liver rfesection. Changed into my gown, dvt socks etc. Usual preparations made - usual visits from different medical professionals and then to wait ... and wait... and wait (6.5 hours to be precise). Operation cancelled as there had been an emergency.

    Now I have no problem with prioritising need and I would never…

  • Let me be scared

    You have not heard from me to date but I have been coming in to Mac land since the end of last year. Thus far I have coped with my diagnosis last October (Bowel Cancer) chemo radiation (november 09 to Jan 10),anterior resection,hysterectomy and illeostomy (March of this year) and weeks of waiting and tests to be told that I can have a laporoscopic liver resection next week.

    I should feel lucky that all has gone well…